Change

Change. It is one of those things that usually sucks and then ends up being good. At least in my experience. I'm hoping that's how its going work this time around too.The thing is, this is a change I have wanted forever, the timing is just shit. 

I finally found friends that accept me for who I am and don't judge me for what I'm not. They share similar interests and have been there for me through some of the toughest times in my life thus far. I don't want to leave that behind, we have planned so much put lives out in anticipation of always being together.

I finally set myself up to be in classes that can help me to achieve my goals. I found teachers that I actually like and get along with, who can help me not only to learn things such as history, English, science, etc. but who have ultimately made me a better person and been mentors to me throughout the years. 

I have become stronger because of all the adversity and ridicule I have been forced to endure. I was finally able to stop resenting my predicament and begin to respect it. Appreciate it even. I was beginning to enjoy it, and now I may be forced to leave it all behind. The people, the experiences, the failures, and successes. An entire life, left behind. 

I always imagined going off to college, meeting someone I loved and starting a family, having a career I loved, living for the moment. However, now that reality has begun to stare me straight in the face, all of that seems incredibly scary. I'm not sure how all of this is going to work out, hopefully for the best. All I can do is try my best to maintain the ties, friendships, and promises I have and stay true to myself because like it or not, this is me.